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RaegJules

Just a millennial figuring it out as I go.

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Where I’ve been and where I’m going

I haven’t blogged lately and that’s not by accident. I’ve been building something. … Read More Where I’ve been and where I’m going

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May 15, 2018May 18, 2018 RaegJulesLeave a comment

Raegan Julia Hedley is ”RaegJules”

I don't have it all figured out, but then again, none of us do! This blog is my way of sharing the lessons I've learned (and continue to learn) with you, never forgetting to keep a healthy sense of humour along the way. Raegjules.com is also about making the most of where you are right now, so you can live the best life possible.

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I’ve been doing a lot of reading, writing, reflecting and questioning lately. I guess when I think about it, the other three all feed into my writing. I was thinking about it, and I’ve changed a lot and done a lot since finishing my degree and getting an “adult” job. My opinions are different, my hair is different, my mindset is different. I am older. I am more educated on the ways of the world. I now need special cream for my face (goddam eczema). But there is one thing that steadfastly has not changed, and I hope it never will: I love writing. It is a warm blanket after being out in the cold for too long. It is a way of making sense of the world. It is a way of bearing witness. It is a messy mud puddle that you can’t wait to jump in. It is an unruly teenager that sneaks out in the middle of the night but makes you proud at the end of the day. It is trying to herd a bunch of hyenas on acid. Here’s a pic of my writing happy place with a new backdrop. I definitely wrote this while feeling a writer’s running high. Let’s be realistic: It’s not always sunshine and rainbows and sometimes I gotta rip the words right out of me, but it’s meant to be. It’s still love even when it’s hard. #instarealtalk #truth #vulnerabilityisstrength #mentalhealth #bravingthewilderness #writersofinstagram #selfcare #selfacceptance #calledtocreate #winnipeg #everydaygratitude #liveoutloud #parentsupport #findyourself #shameless #gratitude #desksetup #deskdecor

I looked down today when I was waiting for the elevator and quickly snapped this. On a week like this I thought it was funny because I don’t have this to remind me to have faith in romantic love (despite the fact that my keychain looks a lot like the one Louise has in the Sex and the City movie). ❤️ I carry the word ✨love✨ with me because it’s a constant daily reminder that the love I’m looking for lives inside me already. I hold the keys to self-acceptance and they are my responsibility (yeah ok this metaphor is a bit on the nose but HUMOUR ME). ❤️ It’s easy to look for someone to give them to for safe keeping. I mean, they are REALLY valuable and if you might feel like you can’t trust yourself to hold on to them. Or you can’t open that door and walk through on your own. But no matter who you lend em to, you’re the only one who can use em’. ❤️ Even admitting to yourself that you think you’re worthy of self-love (despite being imperfect) can be difficult. It was/is for me. It’s scary to love yourself loudly in a world that is built on breaking us down. Also, happy Galentine’s Day babes #love #instarealtalk #truth #vulnerabilityisstrength #mentalhealth #bravingthewilderness #writersofinstagram #selfcare #selfacceptance #calledtocreate #winnipeg #everydaygratitude #liveoutloud #findyourself #shameless #gratitude #selflove

Happy fri-yay from @sarahwakeen and I. It’s really hard to be in a shitty mood after coming to a class with @thecommunitygym especially when you dance around after to Saturday Night by Whigfield like a rave kid mixed with Elaine from Seinfeld. It’s also hard to be the worst version of yourself when you have awesome friends. This is us in all our post-spin, excellent outfit choice, glory 👯 Ski pants are the new overalls (not up for debate). ALSO WE’RE BRINGING SPACE BUNS BACK 💪💫 #funwithfriends #pegcity #thecommunitygym #spinclass

Been feeling at peace the past couple of days. Maybe after my life changing vacation and a lot of Brené Brown I’m finally learning to let go of perfectionism and chill the f*ck out???? STAY TUNED TO FIND OUT 🥳 #bachelorettepad #livingalone #realtalk

Got back from my trip and immediately got sick 😷 but here’s a cute shot from the headshot station at our December @bumblebizz event 😁 If you’ve been meaning to check out a #BumbleWinnipeg event but haven’t made it out yet, we have one on February 13 from 6-8pm at @cordovatapas and it’s all about ladies celebrating ladies 🍷that’s right - it’s a Bumble BFF Galentine’s wine night! ❤️ Come solo or with a friend, show your profile for a free glass of wine and @bumblebff merch, make some new friends or take some time to appreciate your pals👯🙌 follow @bumble_canada and tag a gal pal who would be game for this👇#bumblequeenbee

I only have a handful of photos from when I was a teenager because I didn’t have Facebook until I graduated high school. I almost completely erased them all or lost them over the years. This one is from 2008. In most of the pictures of myself from this time I am drunk, and if I recall correctly, this photo is no exception. I couldn’t bear for many years to look back and reflect on this time I spent struggling, feeling misunderstood and trying to fit in. It would always bring back a flood of memories about eating disorder recovery, depression, therapy, pain, binge eating, drinking till I blacked out, heartbreak and academics. Even typing this I still remember sitting in a bathroom stall scratching the skin off my knuckles till they bled. I remember shutting my parents out. I remember having my first panic attack. I remember believing that I was only in university classes in high school because I knew how to work hard, not because I was smart. But I also remember wearing a hoodie with a tall collar to cover up hickies, winning an award for having the highest grades, setting the carpet on fire in the drama room, making out with boys in forests and under bridges, fighting with my one of my best friend’s and making up in a food court (thank god @jocelynhummelt ), getting an underage drinking ticket, writing a 30-page screenplay, giving people who tried to cheat off me the wrong answers and being an unpaid production assistant on sets 😂 I haven’t always been able to look at photos like this one and remember both sides of the same period of my life. The parts that make me laugh and the parts that hurt my heart. I know it’s the magic of hindsight, but also I’ve learned that you can’t have one without the other. I still have both sides in me and that’s ok. I was messy, deep, loud, raunchy, creative, all over the map and over the top then, and I still am now. I wouldn’t change any of it.✨☺️✌️#10yearchallenge #throwbackthursday #tbt #teenagerposts

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